Wednesday, October 29, 2014

In 1991, Monika wrote a poem titled:"If I should die, when I die..." and a poet friend we share, Justa Wawĩra, wrote in response to her In Memoriam. 19.6.91

IN MEMORIAM
       By Justa Wawĩra

You’ll be remembered
Monica of the golden heart
Not by the stroke of my pen
Nor by the haughty laughter
Of a child named in your name
But by the resurgence of passion
In the heart of I who held you
So near, so dear
You will be remembered too
By the rolling tears of saintly people
When they gather to weep and gather
Garlands of flowers for you…
Waving reluctant goodbyes
As your name resounds afar
You will be remembered
Not by screaming newspaper headlines
Nor in radio and TV broadcasts with your name
But in the sound of the gong
As the Holy Basilica Ground
A servant of Christ our Lord
Your name inscribed in gold for honor
To a girl who waged a war for humanity’s sake.
Do not hope for a Shakespearian mind
To scalpel your life in words
Nor hope for a Milton to scribble
A Paradise Regained in your favor
There won’t be any Philip Larkin
Or Emily Dickinson seeking to sing or write
For you. Yours shall be the song of Nightingales
The Doves and Angels on High.
Don’t even think there will be a street name
Inscribed on priceless wood
For you. Nor wish for a plaque
Sculptured to your form
When dictators can have these.
Look not at the tangible memoirs
Monica of the golden heart
Our love for you shall suffice
Philo and I shall stand in the gap
Never to let your name and deeds ever die
From our lips.

            Written on 19/6/91

Mourning Monika from a far country...For you the fighter whose arms failed... should my pen be mine?

Diary entry 
                  "To bear the unbearable sorrow"

"It is the human 
being that counts. I call gold; 
it does not answer. 
I call cloth; it does not answer. 
It is the human being that counts.« 
~ Ghanaian proverb

   Then

Could I "right the 'unrightable'
 wrong?
Could I even write it?
Could I follow that star
no matter how far
how hopeless?

The above are not my words
I quote a proverb to steady myself

I paraphrase 
The Impossible Dream
but is it?
You can hear it on You Tube
Why should I sing for you now?
Should I not change my tune?

So do I 'Let it be?'
or rant along
for sanity's sake? 
I will breathe along
even if there be no answer
Who will not let it be?
How to 
"right the unwritable wrong?"

Why does she not
whisper to me an
answer now?

And I ask all these lines?
Is this the Answer below
in three lines?

From to Dream the Impossible Dream
"And the world will be better for this
That one (Wo) man, scorned and covered with scars
Still strove with his last ounce of courage"?

But you
You are not a number
We lost you
soul sister
We lost you 
soul country

but I call you the 
One beyond 
  and they hear, more hear

1 333  and
more innumerable
who shared the bitter cup
drowning there
and my own
       We did not know
their quest on our flag?

            M,
I still have words
You followed the quest
in a way most of us
never can
I am sorry is not
enough
For you who was 
never on these pages
Facebook with tears of soul:
  My Beloved,
Rest in Peace 
You 
of
the Golden Harvest
called so by poet years ago

goodbye and yet... not goodnight!
     
  "The winds will carry us forward
with us wherever they go..(To dream the impossible dream!)

For you the fighter whose arms failed...

should my pen be mine?

Was inspired by Glenville Kleiser's, The Bridge You Will Never Cross and copied it out by hand for herself to enjoy... 1989

                                         Ikonya Monica 28.08.1967 - 28. 10. 2014

of Democratic Kenya, she used to call herself...

Year 1989, on 10. 06. 89 we lost Peter Clement Ikonya. He was murdered. Justice never gave us an answer. Monika was never the same again. That may have been the origin of her addiction and desperation which was never of spirit. No need to explain but murder double, triple murders.... So take care. I took her to hospital in her black outs those days. I know. Half an hour to Nairobi Hospital and still she was away.

And when she came to she wanted to be a nun so she tried several convents but in her way she was saying something. That did not work as well. Monika means a lot to us so we press for meaning here but we have accept her crossing bridges!



The Bridge You'll Never Cross
                By Glenville Kleiser

It's what you think that makes the world, seem dull or bright to you;
Your mind may color things gray,
Or make them radiant hue.

Be glad today, be true and wise
seek gold amidst the dross;
Waste neither time nor thought about
the BRIDGE you´ll never cross.

There's useful work for you to do
With hands, brains and heart
There's urgent human Service too
In which to take your part

make every opportunity
A gain not loss.
The Best is yours So do not fear
... the Bridge you will never cross.

If life seems drab and difficult
Just face it with a will
you do not have to work alone
SINCE GOD IS WITH YOU STILL!

Press on with Courage toward the goal
With your shield embossed
BE STRONG, LOOK UP AND JUST IGNORE
THE BRIDGE YOU'LL NEVER CROSS

                     Ikonya Monica of Democratic Kenya

Year 1989, on 10. 06. 89 we lost Peter Clement Ikonya. He was murdered. Justice never gave us an answer. Monika was never the same again. That may have been the origin of her addiction and desperation which was never of spirit. No need to explain but murder double, triple murders.... So take care. I took her to hospital in her black outs those days. I know. Half an hour to Nairobi Hospital and still she was away.

And when she came to she wanted to be a nun so she tried several convents but in her way she was saying something. That did not work as well. Monika means a lot to us so we press for meaning here but we have accept her crossing bridges!

Monika contributed this, and asked for these words to be posted here...

My name is Alcohol

I have killed more men than have fallen in all the wars of the world
I have turned men into Brutes
I have made millions of home miserable
I have transformed many promising youths into hopeless parasites.
I destroy the weak and weaken the strong.
I make the wise men fools and fools to disaster 

The abandoned wives know me well
The hungry children know me well too.
I have worried millions and still continue to run millions more.
I am Strong Alcohol
BE AWARE!!!

Thursday, October 9, 2014

Wakũrũgũrũ ringa gĩcukia! Wakũrũgũrũ dance! and love to write

                 
Lesson One,
to be translated tomorrow....
                          O mũthenya ikara handũ woe karamu na karatathi kana kompiuta kana o kiria                                         urienda wandike ta nuthu ithaa. Ndukamake ni kii
                  wandika ona ndugatinde ugithoma thoma. Waandiki na
                                            waandu interesting.
                           Andu a baita meeitikitie. Andika ukiiguaga murio.
                                                              Ti wa njohi.
                                       Ni wakwenda kwandika.
Wakũrũgũrũ dance!
Before life dances you
Dance, Wakũrũgũrũ!

Dance in sobriety not always in 
drunkenness
Rĩmwe na rĩmwe mwana witũ nĩ anyandĩkagĩra marũa akoiga:
Sometimes my sister writes a letter to me and says
Gaceri witũ maya nĩmo mahoya makwa
Our Gaceri these are my prayers
Ngai wakwa ahotitithie
 That my God may make me able
ndige 
I stop
kunyua njohi 
to drink alcohol
tondũ njohi ti njahĩ
because alcohol is not black beans
Itũmaga itikanarĩo
It makes us incapable of eating them
or any food
Kana ciana ciũgirwo ngemi
or even to ulalate for newborn children
Rĩũ ona ndirĩ wakwa
Now I do not even have my own

Nũũ ukoima narũgũrũ?
Who will come from the north?

Nũũ namũhuro
Who from the south?
O ngĩinaga ndĩmũriuu
And still I sing when I am drunk


Wakũrũgũrũ, Wakũrũgũrũ
dance!
ringa gicukia!
dance!

Nake maitũ no ruthĩa enyitete
nakuria aria angi no maratuana
wanjohi

Ndigithia ndigithu ino Ithe wa Iguru
Baba nduta mugwi uyu ndithecete naguo

Na nii ngamucokeria
Ni ruru kana ni ruriku

Ma minyua Russia metemania
Mamiugiriria Finland mehahura
Ona gwa itharamu ni ihithigio
Ruraya rwothe no njohi na dawa
Ikara o mucii tiga kuura
Uthii kuria ngui ithiyaga tharuni
Ikarihirwo ngiri nyingi

Uria bururi witu kai ari atia
Mbara ya uteti yatigire
yoraga inya ciaa guka
na a cucu no mbu

Wamaitu hoya hinya no wire

wiyathi waku, your self governance,
Your will
Ati no muhaka moko maku
Makweherie mutinoini uyu

Ndagitari wa mitugo 
na mahoya....
 Continued in Wakũrũgũrũ's song of alcohol ©Philo Ikonya 2014